my fave lines from Chances Are of Side A

"It's gonna take some time I know
For what you feel inside to grow
But if to love you has to wait a while, I'll do it
Coz chances are you'll be mine...

Chances are, you're gonna change your mind
Chances are, you're gonna love me too
Chances are, you'll see..."

just some random thoughts...

yesterday, while i was encoding a survey form (a side-line job, thanks to friends), i just came to a thought, a question without an answer: how come there's poverty?richness? i know i will never get an answer to this question, nor can i do something about it. has it something to do with luck? with chance? with destiny? are we all fated to whatever we've become?

another realization... i somehow understood why people (in our workplace especially) refused to learn new things, to develop new skills, to just play dumb (in some cases, they really are). this is just an observation, i have not done an experiment on it myself yet, but I will soon (the playing dumb part. hahaha!) When u try to help someone once, they will always come back to you and it’s as if it is your obligation to help them. When you ask some people from the higher-ups for a simple clarification on some protocols (which they “say” exists) and get an answer like this, “Ah ganun ba? Hindi ko alam ang mga yan e” (trans: Is that so? I don’t know about those things?” – what the hell is that?!?! Aren’t they suppose to know those “management” stuff? Ask them for guidelines, they can’t give you anything, they will just tell you to do it anyway (even if it’s doomed to fail from the start). Obey first before you complain. Trial and Error. this is the REALITY in the corporate world. Best of luck to all of us middle-class workers. Hahaha!

one more thought... i'm so used to being alone that i think i'm afraid of being in a relationship. i don't know how to be, i don't know if i'll ever be.