Everyday, when I pray to God, I tell him "Thy will be done unto me"... but sometimes, i cant help but ask WHY things happen to my life that way. I often tell myself to "Let Go, Let God", but there's this constant aching feeling in me that I cant get away from, that i cant get rid of. (hindi kaya bi-polar ako? wehehehe!)
Siguro meron talagang mga tao na pinanganak na medyo may kamalasan... I hate to think I'm one of those people but it seems like it, I just have to LIVE WITH IT albeit all the tears and the heartaches.
A while ago, hindi ko napigilan, medyo tumulo na yung luha ko sa harap nitong ofcmate ko, nagdahilan na lang ako na may masakit kasi sa balikat ko. (story behind ng pag-patak ng luha ko: someone got irked at me because I cant find a file that he/she thought he/she gave me. I cant remember receiving such. how was i to monitor every document that's been coming & going here. there's no point in making an argument & defending myself, so i kept my lips bitten. i just have to figure out for myself to find that file, i asked for help, but then again you cant expect any from people you thought would help you at your time of need. their offer to help would come in late most of the time, im used to it. true enough, it's not with me, someone else has it.)
kaasar... tama ba naman na etong kanta sa pc ko at this very moment e "A Place in This World"? ayan, on the verge of crying na naman tuloy ako. pwede bang sabihin ko lang ngayon ito, pagbigyan nyo lang ako ha.. "I hate myself and I want to DIE!" mwahahaha!
nagtanggal-stress lang ako... bukas, ano naman kaya mood ko? Ü
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