im a cynic... i admit that reluctantly... im living a mediocre life... pessimistic that's what i am. hahaha! negative thoughts.. negative vibes... just let me be this way for a while... this will pass.
when i was younger, i had hope that i will become a somebody someday, that im meant to do something great (be an accomplished engineer with masteral or doctorate degree, or maybe discover a cure for cancer or be a rock star! harhar!) i think im gonna let it go now. as i get older, priorities have changed, many lessons learnt. i still have hopes though, but for other causes. prayed for simple things, small miracles instead.
one of the small miracles i received just recently is that my dad got a good bill of health from his doctor. the doctor said to just continue his medicines (dosages had been reduced, thank god! medicines here aren't cheap.)
another small miracle is that our family have just been blessed with a new member, Felicity, my brother's kid. she was born april 24, a day before my dad's bday.
one more miracle... we're getting by with our financial crisis one step at a time. debts are always there, but at least we're paying bit by bit.
so, back to the first few lines i entered in this blog... i told you my negativity will pass... it's just a cycle you know... what matters is that im struggling to get back up after stumbling from a fall...
