Wednesday, October 17, 2007

weather-weather lang...

i'm loving the weather these past few days. the sun is out but it doesn't scorch you that much. nights & early mornings are chilly, makes me want to sleep longer...zzzzzz....ooops... reality check! have to get up & go to work. been snoozing the alarm clock 4 times every five minutes.

oh yeah, christmas season is near. have to make that christmas list as early as possible. how many god-children do i have already? hmmm let me count... have to remember their names too. some of them i have not seen yet. i must have been a good friend to their parents so they thought i might be a good "ninang" to their kids (if i'm filthy rich, i would think otherwise. hehe! just kidding!)

what else do i have in mind today? im listening to Yahoo Music Launchcast, tuned it into Vocal Jazz genre. heard some familiar songs though they are quite old. brings back memories (as if im really so old! maybe im an old soul, just not sure what generation i was born during the past) --- playing right now is Johnny Mathis' Chances Are.

btw, the cool weather made me sneeze a lot this morning. ever wonder why you can't open your eyes while you sneeze? haha! i'll do some research on that later.

anyways, THANK YOU, DEAR GOD for another day... thank you for those "weather-weather lang" days... for i know i still exist and have lots of things to be thankful for.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Life begins at 30!!!

hahaha! im 30 yrs old na!!! grabe... thought before that i was gonna live up to 25 only, planned to die young but fate has its way of not letting me. bukas na lang yung dagdag sa post na 'to...

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

small miracles...

im a cynic... i admit that reluctantly... im living a mediocre life... pessimistic that's what i am. hahaha! negative thoughts.. negative vibes... just let me be this way for a while... this will pass.

when i was younger, i had hope that i will become a somebody someday, that im meant to do something great (be an accomplished engineer with masteral or doctorate degree, or maybe discover a cure for cancer or be a rock star! harhar!) i think im gonna let it go now. as i get older, priorities have changed, many lessons learnt. i still have hopes though, but for other causes. prayed for simple things, small miracles instead.

one of the small miracles i received just recently is that my dad got a good bill of health from his doctor. the doctor said to just continue his medicines (dosages had been reduced, thank god! medicines here aren't cheap.)

another small miracle is that our family have just been blessed with a new member, Felicity, my brother's kid. she was born april 24, a day before my dad's bday.

one more miracle... we're getting by with our financial crisis one step at a time. debts are always there, but at least we're paying bit by bit.

so, back to the first few lines i entered in this blog... i told you my negativity will pass... it's just a cycle you know... what matters is that im struggling to get back up after stumbling from a fall...

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

im so sick & tired...

HOME by Dishwalla

I'm so sick and tired of all these things

that drag me down
I've got no where to go…
they say that life is in these hands
you give everything, you give yourself away
you give and still you choke
and find yourself you’re running for the door

come and take me home
lead me to your door
take me where you are
lead me to your door
at least just for a while…

it’s some kind of life, forever days
we're in the cold and unfamiliar way
so take this fear and fade it out
it won't make me sad cause I get sentimental lord
in other ways
and I don't want to let me down here anymore

so come and take me home
lead me to your door
take me where you are
lead me to your door
and let me in, just let me in
and let me leave, just let me leave this world
come on now let me leave this world
at least just for a while…

follow this link & listen to this song: http://lyndsybart.multiply.com/music/item/54

Friday, March 09, 2007

taking little steps...


im struggling to take my little steps to move forward... some friends are willing to help and give me a little push... thank God for them... i need that... i may not always be vocal nor showy about how i feel but i really appreciate the little things that come my way...

i am never the outspoken kind... not your "ms. friendship" kind either... funny how other people take this thing against me... pleasing everyone is not one of the purposes of my existence... however, a friend once told me, "no one can really please everyone. just give them a smile... it won't hurt." maybe it's true...