a week of late night-outs...

i forgot to get back on my previous journal entry. i moved on i guess. it's useless to whine over it, just a waste of time & energy. Ü

the past week had been tiring for me. i've been going home late. the only day i went home a little early was on thursday, no activity invites for that night. Monday - went window shopping in ShangriLa mall, got home around 930pm. Tuesday - went out to see Flightplan with a friend, had dinner & nightcap in Glorietta, got home at 11pm. Wednesday - played badminton at Metro, had dinner with the same friend i was with last tuesday (this friend was avoiding someone & luckily i was available to hang out with her, else she would have spent tuesday & wednesday nights in total awkwardness). i got home that night around 1130 pm. Thursday - i was getting to be a bit worried that my dad might get mad at me for coming home late the past days, so i went home earlier. Friday - i had 2 gimiks for this day. it was planned the week before that my officemates & i will watch a movie, but the movie we all wanted to see isn't going to be shown yet, we ended up having dinner at Shang. my bad_ass sister texted me that there would be a surprise bday party for another friend, which will start at 11pm. i got home 3 am. i have informed my dad about all these gimiks, but not on the details of course. still, as a parent i guess, he was kinda irritated at me but he never said a word. Saturday - i knew my dad was ok with me now bcoz he asked if i will be going out that night. it was Harry Potter night for my friends & i. did some shopping, watched HP4, had dinner & got home 1030pm. Sunday - just chilled out at home. time to do some good deeds to make up for my late nightouts. hehe!

maybe my late nightouts would be considered by some (specially the party-going kind) as mild. for someone young... err... old as me (hehe!), i know i shouldn't be feeling guilty, but being not so used to such, i do sometimes. mabait akong anak e! harhar! Ü

feeling better (or bitter???)

November 11... just when i thought i was feeling better after the past 2 days of being in a gloomy mood, here comes another bad news. i became a victim of workplace politics!

a little rewind...there was a job opening in a certain department in our office. i thought it was my chance to at least somehow start a change in my career so i submitted a letter of intent before October, they said they needed to fill in the position urgently and that internal hiring would be prioritized. i was interviewed by the asst. manager, i took an exam and was told both were ok. i even got a very good recommendation from the asst. manager, but the final decision is up to their department manager.

it's been almost a month that i've waited. news came to me this afternoon that they wanted to see other applicants, with or without experience, even fresh graduates. my application was kept hanging all this time!!! i have my suspicions but i wont bother confirming them, it's useless.

i've had my hopes up but i kinda expected that they would turn down my application. But reality can hit you hard sometimes! and it did for me! after holding back myself from crying the past 2 days, i finally gave in and cried. i thought this week would end without me crying over something i feel bad about, i was very wrong. i was not as strong as i think. good thing i was alone in our office room when i cried, otherwise people might think im going crazy as they dont have any idea what's going on. i have not told anyone about this bad news yet.

at least, today, i feel a little better... unlike yesterday. a dark cloud seem to have gotten over me the past 2 days. i found myself staring blankly at the air. i looked funny that way, as my friend told me. complicated situations...family matters. saka na yung details.

non-sense stuff

dark thoughts... tearless cries... noiseless shouts... i feel so tired!!! i badly needed a hug!

burger! yummy!

i seem to have forgotten what a burger tastes like. i only got to eat burger yesterday after a very very long while, can't remember when was the last time, and I was satisfied with what i bought for dinner from Tender Bob's Express at G4 food court. for P105, i got the quarter pound burger, a side dish of crispy potato skin & large soda. i thought i would not be able to finish it off, but i did. hehe! i did semi-fasting on the earlier part of the day (actually, im trying to go on diet!), but it just made me so hungry. not an effective technique i guess. =)