Friday, July 29, 2005

am i sick


im not bulimic...but i sometimes have episodes of this kind of disorder. not that i feel guilty eating, it's just that i dont feel good, i get dizzy after eating. my body system can't take it i guess. i force myself to vomit because of that.

at times, after eating and then nervousness/stress of any kind comes, i tend to vomit. it's like i feel i am cleansing myself that way, releasing the stress out of myself. i think my condition isn't at all healthy, but neither do i think that im head-sick. anyways, as for the rest of the days..im quite normal. =)

lemons...


they say when life gives u lemons, then make lemonades! harhar! i think i may have been given lots & lots of lemons in my life, although i may have not turned them all into lemonades. cried myself to sleep the past few nights... seems i'm on the verge of giving up. (am i a LOSER? hate the thought of it!)

naah, maybe i ought not to give up... maybe next time. hahaha!